You really hurt my feelings tonight
Made me feel like I wasn’t smart enough
AND
Always letting you down.
I know I’m not good enough.
I never have been for anyone.
Everyone always pointing out flaws.
Everyone always saying where and how I fall short.
It seems like there’s more negative than positive about me.
Ergo, the obvious,
I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH
I will always fall short.
I AM NOT WORTH LOVING
I am just a toy, a hole
I AM NOTHING.
I pray sleep comes to me.
A moment of peace where I do not think or feel.
For I am hurting,
BUT
I know it’ll always pale in comparison.
My armor is heavy and cracked.
My body aches.
My soul cries.
My heart breaks.
I think I’ll sit on the shelf Amongst other toys and things.
I shall rest awhile
AND
See what tomorrow brings.