Slipping

I’m numb

So numb that my vision blurs

I can’t cry

But tears are streaming down my face

Breathe in

As the blade pushes against my skin

Breathe out as it slides across my skin

All the past abuse has me so damaged

I keep messing up in my relationship

Breathe in

As the blade pushes against my skin

Breathe out as it slides across my skin

I see the pain I cause

No matter what I do

I can’t seem to fix it

I’m a coward 

I’m worthless

Not worth the space I take up

Breathe in

As the blade pushes against my skin

Breathe out as it slides across my skin

I’m not worth being with

I’m not deserving of love

I hate myself

I hate what I am

I try to change 

But

Seems as if I’m ever failing

Breathe in

As the blade pushes against my skin

Breathe out as it slides across my skin

I’m slipping

Losing my grip

Breathe in

As the blade pushes against my skin

Breathe out as it slides across my skin